Breaking walls

The words that you do not speak

The feelings that I ignore

I bury these all deep inside

I neglect their implications

I deny the imperfections

This cannot truly be my life

There is no way that I cannot be here

It is not possible for this situation to be as it is

I must be dreaming

It is not possible for somebody to completely shut it off

If he shut me out can I do the same to him?

What must I do to prove to myself his opinion does not matter?

What can I do to be rid of him?

The longing is unlikely to ever leave

I am always going to long for more

Can I get to a space where I am able to forgive for my well being

How can I forgive myself

Why must I forgive

Hate is an emotion so strong it drives me

Yet it seeps deep beyond the layers I have built

These walls I have constructed are now doing me a disservice

One by one I must take a brick down

I must start to once again feel

It's going to hurt more than words can express

Nobody understands the construction and deconstruction

It is not possible to understand the emotions I bear without experience

Words cannot describe

I will not allow the words to penetrate

I am stronger than the emotions evoked by you

I am a pillar of strength and cannot be shaken

I have created this for myself

Had I listened to my instinct I would not be here

What you think of me does not matter

Your words do not shake my existence

I am a better than you deserve

I am not one to be taken lightly

You thought that you could just be

When other factors came into play you ran

You ran for the hills like a scared child

I am not remorseful for what we shared

It was good while it lasted

I am thankful for the things I have learned

I am happy to have shared these experiences

They have enriched my life as well as yours'

My life would not be the same without these feelings

I am who I am because of these

I am strong and these will not burden me

I am chosing to not allow circumstances to determine my future

You do not control me or my life

I chose my path while you chose yours'