Breaking walls

The words that you do not speak

The feelings that I ignore

I bury these all deep inside

I neglect their implications

I deny the imperfections

This cannot truly be my life

There is no way that I cannot be here

It is not possible for this situation to be as it is

I must be dreaming

It is not possible for somebody to completely shut it off

If he shut me out can I do the same to him?

What must I do to prove to myself his opinion does not matter?

What can I do to be rid of him?

The longing is unlikely to ever leave

I am always going to long for more

Can I get to a space where I am able to forgive for my well being

How can I forgive myself

Why must I forgive

Hate is an emotion so strong it drives me

Yet it seeps deep beyond the layers I have built

These walls I have constructed are now doing me a disservice

One by one I must take a brick down

I must start to once again feel

It's going to hurt more than words can express

Nobody understands the construction and deconstruction

It is not possible to understand the emotions I bear without experience